As you may not know Ronnie is in 2 schools. Southeastern Baptist Theological Seminary for a bachelor of arts in Biblical Studies and Durham Tech for a certificate to be an Optician. We have been blessed to have Durham Tech payed for but Seminary seems to pose a slight financial issue only because Ronnie and I both have quite a bit of school debt already accumulated because of poor judgment calls early in our college life. :) Well it is time to sign up for classes at seminary and Ronnie wasn't to sure if he was going to take classes this semester. Well obviously God intervened and he knew it would take a strong influence to do so...let me explain, while in Walmart yesterday Ronnie ran into Dr. Akin himself (wow that hardly ever happens outside of school) and they began to talk, Ronnie expained our situation in an overview and swiftly and quickly Dr. Akin leaned in and said "Ronnie do you not know who we serve? He can make all of your problems and debt go away like that as he snapped his fingers." Talk about a wake up call. Why is it that we forget or choose not to recognize who we serve. Not just because he can take it away at any point but because he knows better than we do why he allows us to face the what we call opsticals in our lives. We see them as past mistakes but he sees them as times where he was able to instill a piece of himself into the way we live our life. Our so called "mistakes" change the way we make the next decision. It gets our attention. We are not born knowing how to be a perfect replecia of Jesus. We spend our lifetime with him molding us into one day becomming perfect like him.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard the Lord is the everlasting God the creator of the ends of the earth. HE will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom." Isaiah 40:28

Did you pay attention to the part of NO ONE can fathom. That means no matter how hard we try to understand or pressure ourselves into thinking if only I had done this, we will never understand why God allows us to take the paths and make the decisions that we make. We only know that he is sanctifing us in the process!

Born Again

Today I found myself After searching all these years And the man that I saw, he wasn't at all who I thought he'd be I was lost when you found me here And I was broken beyond repair Then you came along and you sang your song over me It feels like I'm born again It feels like I'm living For the very first time For the very first time In my life Make a promise to me now Reassure my heart somehow That the love that I feel is so much more real than anything I've a feeling in my soul And I pray that I'm not wrong That the life I have now, it is only the beginning It feels like I'm born again It feels like I'm living For the very first time For the very first time It feels like I'm breathing It feels like I'm moving For the very first time For the very first time I wasn't looking for something that was more Than what I had yesterday Then you came to me and you gave to me Life and a love that I've never known That I've never felt before It feels like I'm born again It feels like I'm living For the very first time I'm living for the first time It feels like I'm breathing It feels like I'm moving For the very first time I'm living for the first time In my life ~Third Day

Anesthesia is No Good Until Surgery

Well today is the first post. I have been wanting to start writing but just haven't found the words to say. Life is going smoothly though I don't know what I would do with out Jesus. With him we don't have a care in the world. That being said my heart really goes out to Jennifer. I know that we as Christ followers tend to easily say "He is in a better place" etc and so on but grieving does not make you any less of a follower. Anger, sadness...these are all apart of grieving the loss of someone you love. A very wise woman told me once that God gave us emotions to draw us near to him not to turn us into hard rocks who don't feel anything. I have thought about many things this week and the lose of my husband is something I just can't even fathom. That same wise woman that shared with me about emotions reminded me that God only gives us the strength when we need it and not a moment sooner. It's like having surgery, you can worry all you want wanting to not endure the pain...you can even ask the surgeon weeks ahead to give you anesthesia but will this 3 week advance give you an assurance that you will have a pain free surgery? No absolutely not. In the same way God does not give us our "anesthesia" until the surgery! Oh isn't he wonderful! Why do we ever doubt his greatness. Please continue to pray for the Grant family.